Foreplay, Music, and A Little Women Appreciation

I post this link, because I feel that this video and this song speaks to me. I don't want to sound soooo corny, but it just does. Between the long intro of a stressed scene of a photographer stepping out to get some fresh air (which seemed like foreplay to me lol), to the way the beat drops and the way he can appreciate a womans beauty, all I can say is this video got to me. I know it seems sooooo simple but the songs element is as simple as enjoying a woman for what she is. No crazy make up, pose, nor clothing can establish who she is, its all about that one smile.

"Love"...or something like it...

I don't want to make this blog about hating men, women because when it comes to the heart no one can control it. WE ALL FUCKED UP SOMEWHERE WITH LOVE ......It is just a matter of accepting it.

For girls, I can at least say it all begins when we are in school and we have our little group of friends and we spot that one guy that caught out attention...then our friends notice it, and start chanting "(YOUR NAME) and (THE BOYS NAME) sittin' in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love...then comes marriage....(we all know the rest) EXCEPT..... that song lied to us. Now a days its,  "(YOUR NAME) and (THE BOYS NAME) after a couple of drinks, F-U-C-K-I-N-G, first comes the sex, then comes the baby , then comes the heart break and all the drama!" It's the truth..unfortunately.

 I don't want to be the cynical one and kill every ones dreams of one day finding love, getting married, and then having a baby, but it just seems that the order has changed drastically in a couple of years. And the crazy part is we all want to find someone to blame, either media, friends, society, whatever it is, but we just don't want to turn around and blame ourselves...YES OURSELVES...you want to know why??? Because over time you are told to do what you want, be what you want...so what do you do????Give in to whatever you what, which is the urge and temptation that people used to fear waaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy back in the day and in result.....we lead to sex....

Now how does this come back to my original topic about how we have fucked up somewhere with love. We all did this because of the pressure that comes with relationships. It happens when we first meet, then date, then the countdown of when you are going to have sex begins! Either both people are not a virgin, or one person is, or both are, it all leads to when you are going to do it...and it better come soon because you don't want to keep the other person waiting or make them unhappy. We don't want to admit to it, but it is just how it works. We then have the pressure take over, and eventually do it...which leads to questions about "Is this real or is this going to be a messing around thing?" or "I didn't want to do it yet, but if not he/she will cheat on me, was the timing right for me?" And that's when the "messing with your head" comes in, because even though we are open to have sex, we are not open to express ourselves because we come off as not being confident. (It's a mess)

We then manage to pursue a relationship which leads to the fucking up your heart part....because not only will a relationship mess your mind, it can make your heart very jaded.(or at least learn a good lesson)

I for one can admit to falling under these categories of messing up someones mind, or their heart because we don't do it intentionally, it just happens. We have the pressures of sex, love, and building a life together, but it is just so hard to go at it the right way. I know we all give into temptation, but in reality, not always giving in is that can make us sane. I have gone through the mess and the confusion enough to just not care anymore (which is not a place where anyone should be). But coming to the conclusion that there is more to life than just sex and being in a relationship and falling in love can be such an insightful epiphany, that it even makes you want to be alone a little while longer, because you can mess someone up, or they can mess you up, but you always do whats best for you, so might as well be alone and happy :)

Atlantic City, Shopping, Girls-Bonding and Lots-O-Shopping!

Who ever said money can't buy happiness...is a liar!!!!!

So this weekend started off shaky. Friday was super boring, Saturday was cool. I finally got to watch that movie "Unstoppable" which was ok. But what made it for me was Sunday...

On Saturday my boss's girl friend (Sue) invited me to go shopping at Atlantic City at the outlets. I thought "ughhhh nooooo, a bunch of girls for work shopping, catty bitches....noooooo". I eventually agreed because Sue told me we would hit up the coach outlet (which I love!) All I gotta say is...I am soooooo glad I went.

We met up with a girl that works with me, Jessica, and a mutual friend, Fatima. I was kind of shaky at first because I don't really hang out with girls like that. I have my own two girl friends, and that is enough because they are awesome. But it was great to go out, meet new people, do some great shopping (which I only spent $200, and I bought a wristlet and sneakers at coach, two shirts at the gap, jeans and a shirt at aeropostale, boots and a shirt at American eagle) life is good.

I am just starting to feel better and it feels great. I thought for a while that I lost myself, but I think I am slowly gaining myself back. I know this little trip to Atlantic City seems so minor, but its just that it feels good to buy myself things, and just worry about myself. I have spent the last two years caring for other people, very broke, and not focusing on myself. It just seems like I am grasping reality again....

Madison Square Garden

I can now say my life is complete. I did a gig at Madison and I kid you not, I couldn't feel happier. It's one of those feelings of accomplishment that you will never forget. I know to a lot of people this may seem like nothing, but to me this is a dream and a goal that I can cross off my list. I have a long list of things I want to do before I die, and it just feels soooooo great to finally cross one out....now 500 more to go. lol. Between the people that I got to work with and the equipment that was placed in front of me, it felt unreal and I could hardly concentrate on who I was for a minuet. I knew exactly what I was doing and I wasn't even nervous! I came in there like a boss, assisting the engineer and getting the job done! I haven't done that in months. I just feel this sense of gratitude, and I don't want to loose it again. It feels good to be me again.

BTW My gig was a rehearsal run for Wintuk on November 17th (opening day). I am sooooo excited, and I have a feeling that I can only go up from here on....

The Bad Girls Club....Etc

I am not one to watch T.V. on the regular, but when I am at the office, I have no choice but to watch the mess that is on. Between watching The Maury Show, Jerry Springer, The Steve Wilkos Show...etc.... nothing got to me like the horrendous "Bad Girls Club".  Makes me want to just protest T.V. and never watch it again. I don't have many female friends so I don't know if this show is capturing the "real" image of what is known as our female interaction....but if this is what it is, I will stick to my only girl friends, and probably not recruit anymore. The catty fights, the arguments between who "runs the house", the drunk dialing and the lesbian talk...I guess makes for good T.V. but these women, or little girls, whatever they are, aren't even trying to portray any positive image. It makes it seem like women cant get a long, cant make wise decisions, or even hold their alcohol and be emotionally stable, let alone try to run for president, run a company, or anything else that require leadership. These girls are messy, disgusting, and call each other "slut whore bag bitch dirty unclassy". They claim to all represent their hometown, but all I have to say is, I would probably be ashamed to even say we are from the same state. Oxygen is supposed to be a "Women's" network, but I think it is being run by a bunch of people that want to make money, not actually make moves and changes in society's point of view.
Let me shine a little light on these girls, since they just love the spotlight....

Kristen:
"The beauty pageant girl gone bad"
This is the little rich girl that came into the house and saw that people viewed her as the "dumb" blonde with money....of which they weren't far off.... and decided to use her catty attitude to "run the house". She is always fighting, cursing, and throwing things....but that's just who she is!
(in reality)
She suffers from low self esteem. She is a follower, not a leader, because she finds the need to claim herself as not being a "dumb" blonde by bringing down people and putting herself up, while leaning on any other girl in her sight. She will be a great candidate for a cult :)

Christina:
"The hardcore lesbian chick from Staten Island"
Making her town proud I see, with her crazy accent that will follow her everywhere. She loves to get drunk, aimlessly drunk dial, and apparently has an on point lesbian radar. Overall... mommy and daddy will be sooo proud :)
(the real deal)
Pretty insignificant. The producers wanted to add another lesbian to mix it up a little...I guess.

Lea:
"The girl who cried lesbo"
Lea is another girl who "runs the house".She is a bi-curious girl who LOVES married men, and constantly cheats on her man, who lives in Miami. She plays with Brandi's emotions (one of the girls in the house who is openly gay) and makes her feel like she is awesome, yet she secretly hates her. All in all...this girl has it all figured out and is a leader....
(the realness)
She's a lesbian...no matter how many guys you can get, footage never lies.

Erica:
"I am a fake Suicide Girl"
Not much to say about this one...she is what she is...a follower...the usual....


Brandi:
"The lesbian Stripper"
Brandi loves to strip and dance all over the place, and takes her job verrrrrry seriously. Even on ameture night with the girls from the house, when they danced on the pole...she collected her money like a pro. This woman does not stay quiet and always speaks her mind. She was good friends with Lea, but it all changed when she was "herself" around her.
(Details)
SHE IS OBSESSED WITH LEA. She loooooooves this girl and wants to be her everything. She is a ticking time bomb and needs help. This woman will break everything in her way to get her point across....and she thinks it is ok!

Ashley:
"I will be your friend now, but then turn on you on any chance I can get"
-Seriously...this is what she says. The girl is a mommy supported leach that need to grow up. I don't have anything else to say but....wow get a job and some self respect. Get some courage and be your own person!

Over all, I am aware this was extreme, but something had to be said. Why isn't there a show about women who are trying to make it in life. I know sooooo many strong women who's life should be documented on how awesome they are.
These women are vindictive and have lost sense of self identity, and it saddens me that this is what is being portrayed.

So what have I learned....Turn Pandora on...Turn T.V. off!! Thanks Oxygen Network!

Cinnamon Toast Crunch 2010

So I want to protest!!! I don't even eat cereal but this woman needs to be shot down so she will never reproduce... just food for thought...

Eyo Pearls Radio

Hello Bloggers! Its is Saturday so what does that mean?!? Party? Movies? Oh no no no...That means I will work 3 shifts...let the party begin! Office in the AM, waitress later on...and then audio gig at night. I am busting my booty off but I am sure it's going to pay off when I go to school in Jan (Which I got accepted!!!!) and also when I start off Eyo Pearls Radio!

Yes ladies and Gentlemen...Eyo Pearls Radio will begin soon. I would start sooner, but it is a lot of work, and I am  doing all of this on my own. I am very excited, and I have a great feeling about this. I haven't felt so positive about anything in a long time, and this is making me very happy. I know it's going to be HUGE!!! So I would love to have every ones support and tell all your friends about it, because I would love every ones input.

I also want to start a little session about music. More about critique about ever aspect. I want peoples opinions about certain albums because I am so tired of people not acknowledging real music anymore, or that albums exist. My next blog will start off the convo talk (now if only I can get more readers) lol.

Well guys have a great weekend and stay informed. I will soon add the new blog and start off some convos! Lets make moves people!

Besos- Pearls

So Beautiful, Cover

The Plan

So I am making moves! I have always wanted to be part of the Internet radio phenomenon and I decided to start off my own segment at least once a week. The show will be called, Eyo Pearls, since that's what everyone calls me. It is only Tuesday and I feel like this week is leading towards success. I am starting my website soon, and I spoke with someone who already has an online radio station and got some great pointers. Overall, I believe this is going to work out great.

Now this is what I need...

I want to base this radio show around great music, fun and some great talent. Of course every show supplies the same, but I want mines to be a little different. I want to play request from callers (and not just your typical top of the charts nasal Rihanna singing) but actual music. I want to talk about real issues and bring out important topics in the community. I want to make moves...lets make moves together people. If anyone has any great ideas, topics, even some great promotions, let me know I want to make the important things known.

Post Production

So I can officially say this is my first blog( after building this page for the past 2 weeks). My name is Pearls. As you can see I am Dominican, a singer/songwriter, producer, audio engineer. I take much pride in my work, but lately (after many life complications and confusions) I started feeling lost and discouraged with the things that I love the most, which is music. Music is my soul, my reason for being and it used to be the only thing in my life. But I guess you can say, I am at a crossroads trying to figure out who I am, what am I supposed to do in life, and what is my place in this earth. I could just simply do one of those "let me travel to Europe clichés" but lets be real...Its 2010, economy is on the floor, and I would rather save up for the future, rather than spend it on "finding myself". So what’s my solution for my problem?? Change location, job, and start school again. I want to set up this blog to put up my updates, my ideas, and to display a clear direction of where my journey is headed. I hope you guys enjoy this, and please feel free to add any comments. I am in the pursuit...of music:)