Monday, November 15, 2010

Atlantic City, Shopping, Girls-Bonding and Lots-O-Shopping!


Who ever said money can't buy happiness...is a liar!!!!!

So this weekend started off shaky. Friday was super boring, Saturday was cool. I finally got to watch that movie "Unstoppable" which was ok. But what made it for me was Sunday...

On Saturday my boss's girl friend (Sue) invited me to go shopping at Atlantic City at the outlets. I thought "ughhhh nooooo, a bunch of girls for work shopping, catty bitches....noooooo". I eventually agreed because Sue told me we would hit up the coach outlet (which I love!) All I gotta say is...I am soooooo glad I went.

We met up with a girl that works with me, Jessica, and a mutual friend, Fatima. I was kind of shaky at first because I don't really hang out with girls like that. I have my own two girl friends, and that is enough because they are awesome. But it was great to go out, meet new people, do some great shopping (which I only spent $200, and I bought a wristlet and sneakers at coach, two shirts at the gap, jeans and a shirt at aeropostale, boots and a shirt at American eagle) life is good.

I am just starting to feel better and it feels great. I thought for a while that I lost myself, but I think I am slowly gaining myself back. I know this little trip to Atlantic City seems so minor, but its just that it feels good to buy myself things, and just worry about myself. I have spent the last two years caring for other people, very broke, and not focusing on myself. It just seems like I am grasping reality again....

Monday, November 8, 2010

Madison Square Garden

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I can now say my life is complete. I did a gig at Madison and I kid you not, I couldn't feel happier. It's one of those feelings of accomplishment that you will never forget. I know to a lot of people this may seem like nothing, but to me this is a dream and a goal that I can cross off my list. I have a long list of things I want to do before I die, and it just feels soooooo great to finally cross one out....now 500 more to go. lol. Between the people that I got to work with and the equipment that was placed in front of me, it felt unreal and I could hardly concentrate on who I was for a minuet. I knew exactly what I was doing and I wasn't even nervous! I came in there like a boss, assisting the engineer and getting the job done! I haven't done that in months. I just feel this sense of gratitude, and I don't want to loose it again. It feels good to be me again.

BTW My gig was a rehearsal run for Wintuk on November 17th (opening day). I am sooooo excited, and I have a feeling that I can only go up from here on....

Saturday, November 6, 2010

The Bad Girls Club....Etc



I am not one to watch T.V. on the regular, but when I am at the office, I have no choice but to watch the mess that is on. Between watching The Maury Show, Jerry Springer, The Steve Wilkos Show...etc.... nothing got to me like the horrendous "Bad Girls Club".  Makes me want to just protest T.V. and never watch it again. I don't have many female friends so I don't know if this show is capturing the "real" image of what is known as our female interaction....but if this is what it is, I will stick to my only girl friends, and probably not recruit anymore. The catty fights, the arguments between who "runs the house", the drunk dialing and the lesbian talk...I guess makes for good T.V. but these women, or little girls, whatever they are, aren't even trying to portray any positive image. It makes it seem like women cant get a long, cant make wise decisions, or even hold their alcohol and be emotionally stable, let alone try to run for president, run a company, or anything else that require leadership. These girls are messy, disgusting, and call each other "slut whore bag bitch dirty unclassy". They claim to all represent their hometown, but all I have to say is, I would probably be ashamed to even say we are from the same state. Oxygen is supposed to be a "Women's" network, but I think it is being run by a bunch of people that want to make money, not actually make moves and changes in society's point of view.
Let me shine a little light on these girls, since they just love the spotlight....

Kristen:
"The beauty pageant girl gone bad"
This is the little rich girl that came into the house and saw that people viewed her as the "dumb" blonde with money....of which they weren't far off.... and decided to use her catty attitude to "run the house". She is always fighting, cursing, and throwing things....but that's just who she is!
(in reality)
She suffers from low self esteem. She is a follower, not a leader, because she finds the need to claim herself as not being a "dumb" blonde by bringing down people and putting herself up, while leaning on any other girl in her sight. She will be a great candidate for a cult :)

Christina:
"The hardcore lesbian chick from Staten Island"
Making her town proud I see, with her crazy accent that will follow her everywhere. She loves to get drunk, aimlessly drunk dial, and apparently has an on point lesbian radar. Overall... mommy and daddy will be sooo proud :)
(the real deal)
Pretty insignificant. The producers wanted to add another lesbian to mix it up a little...I guess.

Lea:
"The girl who cried lesbo"
Lea is another girl who "runs the house".She is a bi-curious girl who LOVES married men, and constantly cheats on her man, who lives in Miami. She plays with Brandi's emotions (one of the girls in the house who is openly gay) and makes her feel like she is awesome, yet she secretly hates her. All in all...this girl has it all figured out and is a leader....
(the realness)
She's a lesbian...no matter how many guys you can get, footage never lies.

Erica:
"I am a fake Suicide Girl"
Not much to say about this one...she is what she is...a follower...the usual....


Brandi:
"The lesbian Stripper"
Brandi loves to strip and dance all over the place, and takes her job verrrrrry seriously. Even on ameture night with the girls from the house, when they danced on the pole...she collected her money like a pro. This woman does not stay quiet and always speaks her mind. She was good friends with Lea, but it all changed when she was "herself" around her.
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SHE IS OBSESSED WITH LEA. She loooooooves this girl and wants to be her everything. She is a ticking time bomb and needs help. This woman will break everything in her way to get her point across....and she thinks it is ok!

Ashley:
"I will be your friend now, but then turn on you on any chance I can get"
-Seriously...this is what she says. The girl is a mommy supported leach that need to grow up. I don't have anything else to say but....wow get a job and some self respect. Get some courage and be your own person!

Over all, I am aware this was extreme, but something had to be said. Why isn't there a show about women who are trying to make it in life. I know sooooo many strong women who's life should be documented on how awesome they are.
These women are vindictive and have lost sense of self identity, and it saddens me that this is what is being portrayed.

So what have I learned....Turn Pandora on...Turn T.V. off!! Thanks Oxygen Network!