"I have made up my mind. California here I come!"
It hit me when I was at home after my parents came back from Dominican Republic. They were talking about how happy they were out there, and how they want to rush back. And all I could think was....I need to find happiness too.
Most of you don't know my story and why I am in this situation in life where it has been sooo confusing trying to figure out that to do with myself. Here's a short synopses of why I am here.
- I finished high school and got nooooo help from my parents for college (which made me not go to the school I wanted to go)
- I ended up going to a school I didn't like and I moved to Jersey City.
- I switched schools and ended up going to SAE to study Audio Engineering (which was the only good thing)
- I met my ex....EPIC FAIL.
- I moved to DC to work after I was done with school, and things were looking up.
- My father got extremely ill, so I dropped everything and came back home to help.
- My ex and I broke up.
- Epic sibling rivery.
- Epic arguments with my parents.
- Had a hard time finding a job that I enjoyed.
- Found a job, that I hate.
- I was stuck between family drama, running away from relationships, and hating where I am in life!
So my next step is saving up my dollaz, going out to cali in April to take my placement test, registering for classes, planning where to live, and making huge moves. I feel happier and very excited for this new chapter in my life. I am happy here close to all my friends and family but everyone is making their own path and I just have to learn to pave mines.
I was so scared to disappoint anyone with my decision, but I have to concentrate on what I want and I have to be myself and believe in me that where my heart is going is the right way. I have been using my brain to make all of my decisions but now I want to finally follow my heart. Cali here I come!
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